There goes my happily ever after

Today my world came crashing down

I got to the end of that yellow brick road

A long road of good times and smiles

And promise of the emerald city

To the end of the rainbow

A ribbon of colorful personalities-

And what awaited me

Was a pile of rubble.

Someone had run off with the pot of gold

And my knight in shining armor had better places to be.

Half a world apart

I want to play where you used to play,

Cry where you cried

Walk the same streets you did as a child

Watch the sun rise from your bedroom window.

I want you to tell me what you think about at night,

Just before you drift off into a different world,

And first thing when you wake in the morning.

I want to tell you everything

For you to trust me enough to sing

Loud enough for everyone to hear

'Baby your the one for me'

Is it sad to wish for your arms to hold me

To think of your sweet gaze everyday

I know we barely know each other

But I want you all the same.

Sometimes I hate myself for hoping

That even though we are half a world apart

That even though I wake to your sunset

That we may have a chance together.

I feel like I made things up in my mind,

That those little glances you give me

Are all just wishful thinking.

Only time will tell I guess.

I hope to last till then.

She Knows.

She knows she is a slave to her emotions,

She knows she lost control

She knows to fight for freedom

She knows she's fading fast.

She knows she's desperate for sweet release

She knows to rely on the physical discomfort to drown the internal sorrows.

She knows that breaking the cycle will be near impossible,

She knows it wont be easy,

She knows that what she's doing is killing herself,

She knows no other way.

Child of Grief

The only child of grief,

A mother to pain and sadness,

Hides behind a blade

She stays close to it

For it is her lifeline, her safety cord

That keeps her from fading away.

She needs a knight in shining armor,

Something I will never be,

To pick her up and take her away,

To a land free from misery.